Exam time!

It's that time of the year once again. The time when our university doesn't come out with a date sheet and I sit at home getting bored and doing everything in the world apart from studying.

Arghh.

I soo hate this.
I have absolutely nothing to do.
Nothing.
Zilch.
Zero.

All I do is surf the net the whole day long.

Just made an account on Twitter.
Another reason to be online the whole day long.

But the point is, if I don't do anything, what the hell will I even tweet about...??
:(

Loneliness knows me by name

I've always wondered, why is it that we always need somebody by our side.
Parents when we're kids, friends during adolescence, a lover when we're older.
Is it actually a need for someone to be there, or do we just follow the trend of having a best friend, a confidant, and hence just look for someone to be there?

I've always been a loner. A loner not in the literal sense, as I do have friends, but I tend to go by my own rules. I don't really like going by the set norms of our society, and I tend to listen to my quiet little inner voice rather than the blarings of the trends and people around me.

Today, in one of my routine arguments with my father, he picked up a point which hurt me a lot.
I, having been the one to always come clean to my parents, had declared my committed status at home. I knew I'd never be blatantly supported for it, as this is India, after all.
I just wanted my parents to know, because I knew I had found someone whom I could trust and love and be with for the rest of my life. (May it be otherwise from his side now. Anyway)
Coming back to the argument, My father told me in very clear terms that according to him, I had got into a relationship because that was the trend of our generation, and not for any other reason.
Is that what our parents take love to be? Just a passing fad or a trend?

Isn't it possible, that young as we may be, we can actually love someone in a true and pure kind of a way instead of lust or whatever our parents think it is?
I'm turning 22 in February. My parents have already started talking about marriage and all. I know they're joking as it'll take me another 3 years to become a graduate. But isn't it hypocritical to be talking about marriage on one hand and to be declaring me to be 'too young for these kinda things' on the other?

I never fell in love just because everyone around me had a boyfriend to talk about.
I found someone who was just what I'd always wanted, who was just like me in some ways and quite different in others.
I wasn't following some trend in falling in love. I wasn't even aware I'd fallen in love.
It just hit me one fine day in May 2006.

I don't believe we always need someone by our side. I'm all by myself right now. After a good few hours of crying, I'm all alone and it'll be me who will be wiping my own tears.
And I'm fine.
I'm gonna be fine.

You don't always need someone.
But for what it's worth, it's always good if you have someone to go home to.

Who? Me??

I used to think I was a poet.
I say 'was' because nothing can compare to this.

And it's true that two very different things can't be compared, but what the heck, I wanna be this good!
:(

I used to be a better writer, fluent with my words, and my vocabulary ever expanding.
I don't know when did I let myself go.
Maybe it was 2 years back when I left journalism to get into dentistry. And the only dictionary I started referring to was a medical dictionary.
:-/

I'll go back to what I was. I'll be the voracious reader that I was, once again. I won't let the happenings of my life change the person that I am.

Later
xoxo

The movie of my life..

Films are easy.
The ones with a happy ending leave you all mushy and happy and the ones with a not so happy ending leave you emotional and teary eyed.

Wish life could be the same..

Ever wondered what your life would be like if it were the story of a movie?

Like my life for starters..
I would've been the popular girl, the one who aces the exams and still has the time to go out and have fun too..
Guys would've been waiting on me hand and foot..
(OK, that's a bit too much, but what the heck, it's my story line!)

I would've passed out of school with a 90 percent (atleast!)

I would've got into the college I wanted, and instead of leaving the career I opted for, the one that I was actually good at, I would've stuck with it.
And I would've been a top notch celebrity news reporter.. :)

Coming to the recent events of my life, my boyfriend, the only person I've ever been close to, wouldn't have dumped me after 3 years together.
I would've been worshipped like a queen! :P
(Getting a bit too much again, isn't it?)

I would've had the self respect not to call him day and night, crying and begging for another chance, despite the fact that it wasn't my fault.
I wouldn't have been cruelly laughed upon, I wouldn't have been hung upon, I wouldn't have been left to cry alone.
I wouldn't have to wish for something dreadful to happen to me, like finding out I had some terminal disease or to get into an accident, just for him to take notice of me.

I told you, movies are easy.
It's life that sucks.

What would your story line be like?

Almost Lover by A Fine Frenzy

Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images
You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick

Well, I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images
And when you left, you kissed my lips
You told me you would never, never forget
These images

No

Well, I'd never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine

Did I make it that
Easy to walk right in and out
Of my life?

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should have known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do